My Grandma's Chair

With classes being online and living in a studio apartment it means I spend a lot of time at home.... and even more time trying to find a comfortable place to stay focused and work. The past three weeks have been some of the busiest and most trying times of my life. Tonight I realized I miss writing my blogs, reading, traveling and more than anything, my family. I sat in my Grandma's chair to drink some tea and try to unravel all the craziness that is your 20s!

For the first time in a long time I felt like a little girl in my Grandparent's old farmhouse. This might be weird but I know most of you will understand... I smelt my Grandma's house! How have I sat in this chair so many times the past few months and missed this nostalgic feeling? I listened to the rain beat against my window pane and imagined the many days and nights my Grandma sat in this chair and drank cappuccinos, napped, or played Farmland (haha!). It made me question all the things I have missed out on seeing in their fullness. The things I've missed because I have convinced myself that I am too busy to take extra time to feel passion and purpose in these small moments.

Sometimes I get so caught up in my school work that I forget what makes my major so meaningful and why it brings me purpose! It's easy to walk by this chair, sit in it, or throw my back pack on it and forget who it belonged to first. Easy to forget who has paved the path that I aspire to follow. When I sit in this chair and take the time to remember, I think about my Grandma. I aspire to be married to the love of my life for 50+ years, raise three amazing kids, and grow old to watch my Grandchildren's successes.

How do I walk by so many other people, things, or opportunities in my life and forget to truly see them. How can I read 3 different text books a week, lead a bible study, or research ways to end world hunger but completely forget the meaning behind it all!? Forget why they are so special to me. Maybe this chair means nothing to you, or maybe it means everything.

Is there anything or anyone special in your life that you are easily forgetting to cherish? I don't want you to miss any more chances to sit in your Grandma's chair. Someday she won't be here, but I will keep this chair until it falls apart... and remember the smell, the cappuccinos, and the Facebook games. Someday all the studying, working, and research will pay off. But I will then miss the simplier times of reading my textbooks, drinking coffee with my Bible Study women, or all the people I encountered in the small charitable acts.

Take time for the things and people you love. And especially you. It's no fun finding your pupose but forgetting your passion for it. It's not JUST a chair. It's not JUST a major. It's not JUST a job...

-B